After the long break....

After the long summer break, which was totally enjoyable, I have come back to Australia. I was really reluctant to leave Singapore, my family, my friends and my cats, and when it came time to board the plane, I felt like if someone offered to give me a device that could turn back time, I would use it without hesitation.

But time marches forward relentlessly and I had to board the plane to Australia, the land down under. When I touched down, Australia felt familiar. I didn't experience the displacement stress that I felt when I first arrived in this foreign place last year. Perhaps it was because the sight of the international airport in Sydney was so familiar to me already. But the familiar sight didn't lessen my longing for my bedroom at home, nor my nostalgia for my cats. I was already missing my Danny and Millie despite being less than 5 mins on Australian territory.

It's been 3 or 4 weeks now since I arrived again in Australia, and while this return home should have been less stressful for me, this past 3 weeks have seen me labouring under more stress than ever. I've split sesame oil on the carpet, and now it's stained quite badly... I've searched for 2 housemates within 2 weeks consecutively.... I've got tough school work... I've got a project to do... All these daily stresses seem just to pile up, and suddenly, I find that I'm not so resilient to these stresses anymore! I become paranoid, tired, and I worry endlessly. I worry about money, I worry about my schoolwork... Sometimes, these past 3 weeks seem like an endless round of worries.

There were times of enjoyment of course. Being a seasoned traveller in Sydney, this time round, I am more out-going. I have taken up riding lessons once a week, gone to the gym for cardio workouts and pilates classes, and have occasionally gone out to auburn to eat, and lounge at serene's pool when the sun is out. I've held a party at my apartment, dressed up, made a few friends, strengthened more than a few friendships, and at the moment, have my own room to quietly recuperate my strength and resilience.

Well, the surest thing to overcome worrying oneself to death over hassles is to decide on a plan of action, act on it, and well... Just to entrust the rest to God above! And in the meantime, to count my blessings, and make full use of my time in Australia.

I keep forgetting that I will never again have this chance to live in another city as I am doing right now. The path that I chose before, has led me here, and really, I ought to put it to full use!
God willing, I will make a life here that will be pleasing to Him.